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Lot been going on....

2017-03-29 21:47:31 by Jiovanni

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So life has been kinda crazy. Just found out this week that after 10 years my mother in law is now basically resenting me because I don't want to have kids even thought I've been pretty honest and open about it for the past 10 years and old briefly for about a year in 2013 did I actually consider it. But my intrusive thoughts control my mind so much and I just don't feel it is safe for me to raise a baby persay. So one night in a drunken fit, my mother in law posts on my facebook quote that I am a liar and lied to her, which is BS. On top of that we rent and live with her. So I'm kind of in a bind. I feel like shit. lower than dirt. I feel like I don't matter to her unless I produce a kid for her. Like she would trade me for a grandchild in a heartbeat. It sucks. It really does. But I've been venting through drawing and writing.

 


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nietzlawenietzlawe

2017-05-22 22:15:58

If you don't want to have a kid it is your choice. We can't always live to the will of others. It's a sensible choice not to impulsively have kids if you feel like you aren't ready for it. Your mother in law needs to understand that it is not the end of the world and that we live in 2017 where a lot more people are making bolder decisions in life that aren't about previous trends and traditions.

Arranged marriages are another silly thing that must die out.